For as long as I remember, my brain has been in a constant state of conflicting contrasts. It’s pushed and pulled me into quiet and chaos on repeat, both sides exhausting each other while also getting bored at the same time. I’ve spent most of my life feeling like I needed to choose sides and it never worked. I never felt “right”. Feeling constantly misunderstood I began to shrink myself into someone I couldn’t recognize no matter what I changed around me.

In 2022 my life changed in ways I never would have predicted. Since then I have excavated my mind and pushed myself in ways that I hope I never have to do again.

I learned well into my 40’s that my brain operates differently has been incredibly clarifying and challenging. However, it explains everything that I have struggled with for so long. The need for chaos and quiet constantly battling each other makes sense now.

I see that duality of my years of creative work. Striped back and quiet and also colorful and alive. I’m relieved that the pressure to choose is gone and I can finally lean into both in whatever way I feel like.

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